I woke up on the couch after falling asleep with my book. I’m reading After the Ecstacy, the Laundry by Jack Kornfield.
As I lay there in the dark, I started ruminating about yesterday’s disagreement between C and me, doing mental cartwheels between “why is he such an asshole? blah blah blah” to “what am I supposed to be learning here? blah blah blah” to “I have GOT to breathe and calm down.”
I start to meditate, and at one point when I’m really deep, I feel this energy enter the left side of my body. It’s almost like someone is downloading an upgrade to my OS. The upgrade includes grounded, protective mommy energy that lands in my left thigh, and over my heart and just underneath my left rib. I lay there for a minute, feeling this new patch, letting it integrate with the rest of my system.
Thanks, whoever sent that. I’m going try to get back to sleep now.
fishmama said,
October 16, 2007 at 8:49 am
don’t just do something! sit there! and if you want to sit with others, there’s always the tuesday night group at dave’s – there are at least two mamas there every week. and one daddy.